As 2017 came to a close, I decided to set aside some time to reevaluate myself. These last 12 months have been exciting, challenging and heartbreaking. I experienced some career highs in the author world. Wrote a book. Had it published and took a blogging opportunity. Picked up an internship. Upped my networking game. Connected with some awesome people. And the list continues to grow.
What’s a life of highs without the lows to balance it out? Suffering from loss, death, slight depression, wanting to give up and mental warfares took a lot out of me. My soul has taken major hits last year to the point where the only thing I wanted to do was sleep. Sleep was my answer to everything. Am I upset? Sleep it off. Am I mad? Sleep it off. Bad day at work? Sleep it off. Fighting with my loved ones? Sleep it off. Frustrated because I can’t write? Sleep it off. The minutes turned into hours and into days and weeks. Before I knew it, months were going by and the only thing that was getting fed was the negative box that I had put myself in.
No one really tells you how stressful life can be. We joke about it sometimes with comments like “the struggle is real” or “times are hard”, etc. But the shit is real. Life gets real. And it gets real fast. Sometimes it hits you back to back with no sign of a silver lining anywhere.
The beauty of it all is coming out of those storms stronger than you’ve ever been, ready for whatever. When you go through so much shit, nothing seems to faze you anymore. You’ve been broken down so much, that anything else that comes after only strengthens you. You begin to realize that you’re built for this. You got this. And you’ll try your hardest to make sure you don’t get broken down again. Even though life will continue to throw unexpected curve balls, at least you will know how to knock those motherfuckers out of the park. Just when you think you’ve been buried so far into the ground, you have to realize that you’ve actually been planted. And things that are planted do what exactly? Grow.
I’ve been through some shit last year. And I can honestly say that I’m glad it’s over. I’m ready for better but just in case, I’m prepared for the worst, too.
I started 2017 with a grocery list of things to accomplish by December 31st. This time, there will be no list. Instead, I walked into the new year with one word and one area of focus:
Progression (noun.) : the process of developing or moving gradually towards a more advanced state.
Every so often, we tend to be our own worst critics. For me, not anymore. No more negative criticism of myself that isn’t constructive. No more putting myself on personal deadlines, restrictions or unreasonable time frames. No more making lists of far-fetched goals with cutoff dates. This year, I WILL give myself time. I WILL encourage myself. I WILL celebrate my successes more. I WILL embrace my losses. I WILL progress in ALL aspects of my life.
My only goal is to progress. In any and everything. To be in a better spot all around than I was this year. Mentally, Physically, Spiritually and Financially. No matter how “little” the progression may appear, it is still progression. Slow progress is STILL progress nonetheless.
I plan on loving more, living more and laughing more. To all of the friends, family, and supporters, thank you for sticking with me. I’m so glad to be taking you all with me into this year. I can’t wait to see what it has in store for all of us.
To everyone else, “excuse me while I become extremely selfish with myself, my time and my energy. I am currently creating the woman that I want to be.” - Anonymous
To January: Hello, 2018. I’ve been waiting for you.
EM Woodz Aka The Dream Big Pretty is A Nashville, TN native, Em is a twenty something year old millennial writer. When she isn’t penning a new book, she can usually be found stalking Pinterest for the latest trends, planning new vacations or enriching the lives of others with motivation. Feel free to follow her journey on Instagram: @thatFANCYwriter| Facebook: Em Woodz | Wattpad: thatFANCYwriterEM